~aprilspit

modelling clay, soldering tools, brass wire and a glass full of muddy water on my desk. guess, what am i doing?

i finished my first sculpture this night, in a kind of meditational state. i only realised it was morning because the yellowish light of my lamp suddenly was outshone by the bluish morning light.
well, i am so proud of me! i want to spend the next night modelling too...

what is also lying on my desk is a package of flesh coloured artificial nails i bought today. they give me the creeps everytime i look at them, my mind always makes them real fingernails before i can stop it. i´m planning a series with them. no coincidence i also bought a very terrible nailpolish colour - orange. i HATE orange.
i feel so drawn to dubious things in the last time...i have the impulse to collect dead insects, twigs and all kind of other everyday-debris unnoticed by people, and i find a strange delight in all kinds of uglyness...colours i don't like, music i find pathetic, artificial fingernails.

the difference engine. that's the title of a book i saw someone i know read two days ago. i don´t know what a difference engine is, but i feel like it's me.

PS i just received this [link] ...another example for what i said before. i don´t like jim carrey, he always makes me feel as if i´m forced to watch a very ugly and annoying child. but this is quite nice!